Just lost !!

This is the third time ( I guess) this has happened in a month's time. Once in an Indian store, Iwas returning home as usual, and stopped to buy something. I was waiting in the queue to make the payment and a friendly indian lady came up and asked "Are you all right?" .. and it was as if she shook me up from my thoughts, may be she had asked a few questions before which did not reach me. And I answered "Ohh.. yes I am ok.. was just preoccupied with something else.."(Pre-occupied with WHAT ?? I dont remember..) and she said .. "Ohh you've come directly from work .. work can really get strenuous at times"..and I said to myself.. "is it ?? perhaps yes". And again today, when getting a coffee, an american guy came up and asked as they generally do "How are you today ?" And I was blank.. guess it took me a second longer to answer the question, and he asked "Did I scare you?" and then again the same answer.. "No not at all.. I am sorry but I was thinking about something else".

I wonder where am I these days.. definitely not with my self. With my work ? not so much .With Him ? .. no.. not yet ...I am not very sure who he is. With my friends back home... no they seem to have gone far .With my dreams .. no they still seem not very achievable. Planning for Iowa trip..no..I know I am going to enjoy whatsover. Planning for next few months and years .. no. I have learnt not once but many times that such planning does not help much. THEN WHAT ELSE ??

This is getting scary. I wonder where has that girl gone, who could concentrate on things amidst a crowd, TV music, everything in the world. Is this a way of losing concentration or something else..? Does that girl no longer exist ? Can someone find her for me ? Now with all other things, this is one of the things I need to work on, getting my focus back, if not everywhere, at least in public places so that I dont have to face such embarrasing situations again !!